It’s difficult for people in my position. The slightest thing can turn it all back. Sometimes you can be a very strong person and you can build things up, against all odds, but then it takes one tiny little thing, and that little four letter word can send you cartwheeling back. But you can still strive for it. I’ve tried, but it’s always gone wrong. It’s so much heartache and I just don’t want any more of that. I really don’t. I think love always comes first, but love can let you down. You have to be so damn strong.